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Hello ~ ^^

Today's been a really .. motivated day. I finally got into writing again (yay! ^^) and even posted that drabble-wannabe ^^;; (link here) Even though I'm not really happy about how it turned out, I'm still glad I got something done. I love the feeling of finishing things, I have a bad habit of never getting there.

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H-hello *shivers*

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My aunt is coming over today and we will have a really cozy family day c: It's been a while (not counting xmas) so I'm really looking forward to it ^^

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I feel like I have a lot to say, but at the same time, I don't want to make this another monster update where I ramble about things that don't even make sense ^^ However this thing turns out, bear with it n_n


and it really got me thinking about where I've been going ^^; I haven't been studying as much as I would've liked to and that has made me even less motivated to pick up that book. "I don't have time" and all kinds of excuses. I will never ever respect a person who blames the fact that he/she hasn't done anything on "I didn't have time" because really, you do. No matter how much stuff you have going on that day, you can take an hour or even just half an hour in the evening to sit your ass down and study. That's called being lazy and not having the balls to admit it. But I kind of turned into that myself.

So I opened my books and I sat down, and I studied for probably 2 hours while my dear friend kept me company online c: I realized that it IS important to look back, because even now when it feels like I haven't progressed at all, when I look back at the time when I could barely conjugate verbs, I realize I have become better, at least a little bit. Every minute I study brings me forward, and it's like he said - A year from now I will wish that I had started today. 

So this somewhat opened my eyes for what I've been blind to and I concluded that I'm okay with my level. I'm not good, but that's okay. I haven't made any real effort to become good either, so why would I be? Studying 4 hours a week isn't gonna cut it, it helps, but it's not good enough. I know I have time. EVERYONE has time. Want to sleep 8 hours a night? Make that 7. Reading the newspaper for an hour every morning? Don't, you can do that later. Mindlessly reading blogs or being on facebook? Skip that for a day, study instead. I realized I have so much time that I think I don't, because I like to make excuses so that I don't have to feel bad for not being as good as I should be. From now on, I'll stop with that.

I don't know if you study Japanese. If you "say" you're studying Japanese. If you actually do. So I don't know if this will matter to you in the slightest. But this was really something important to me. I really really want to live in Japan when I grow up. I want to build a future there. It's not something I'm joking around about, it's not a dream that "might" come true for me. I'm serious. I've been spoiled enough living in Finland so thinking things will just work out for me is somewhat natural. But it won't. If I don't do anything about it, nothing will happen because nobody wants someone who blames everything on something or someone else. I read about tons and tons of people who say their dream is to live in Japan, to know japanese.
... Please don't insult my dream like that. I don't want to be put together in the same group as people who talk and talk and talk about how they're studying and how they will live there one day when in reality, they don't put in any effort at all. That makes everyone who's actually serious look bad.

I don't know why this thing suddenly came to life orz It wasn't supposed to end up like this, but I guess it's okay once in a while ^^ I haven't ranted in a while so just... live with it?

If you read through this whole monster, thank you? ^^;; And happy holidays for as long as they last!

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Merry christmas everyone!! ^^

This time a year is definitely my favorite (christmas time) simply because of the cozy feelings that are everywhere. I really love it c:

It's already been 2 days since christmas but I'll write this now when I have time c: I wanted to be with my family as much as possible and we just came home today!

This christmas has been amazing in so many ways! I finally, fiinally got the tablet I've been wanting forever, the Wacom Bamboo Connect ctl-470 which is super super amazing and it's helped me improve so much in os un////n I'm so happy I have it, I really really love it n_n best christmas gift ever!
Otherwise I pretty much got money and such c: My dad paid for my London trip with my school in April (?) next year so that's his gift and ofc some clothes ~ I also got a concert ticket and some cute stuff I chose myself when we went christmas shopping a few weeks ago :3

I wish I would've taken more pictures, but I didn't orz I don't have a single one from the actual christmas eve ><






Hello ~ ^^

Today is the very day when there's 3 days left til xmas and 3 months left til my 18th birthday! ^^

I wish I had something relevant to talk about, but I really don't. Exhaustion from, well, everything has seemed to have caught up with me (finally) and I've literally done nothing but sleep/rest for the whole day. I didn't get up enough to do anything productive until 19:30. ^^;; Well, it's the first day of the holidays so I can give myself this much, don't u think? ~

I did decide that it was a good idea to cut my fringe today and bring it back from its hopeless "3cm below my eyes" state c: Then I read my daily horoscope and it said "You might feel like changing your physical appearance today. Be aware that you may be just a little too easygoing right now" so I'm waiting for the universe to punish me ...

I was thinking about what kinds of pictures to post, but I really didn't come up with anything. Then I decided that if I have pretty nails like 3 times/year, I might as well showcase them off.

Labels: Japanese, kawaii, my life

Hello ~

There's only 5 days left until christmas and I couldn't be more excited! <3 I'm finally done with school for this year, a lovely 2 and a half week holiday waiting for me c: It's going to be so nice to just not have to do anything, no assignments, no deadlines. No nothing. ^^

While about 70% of the reason why I'm looking forward to xmas is because of ham, ham and more ham, I'm really looking forward to spending time with family c: I also managed to get myself a tablet for christmas, so I'm expecting a lot of osu ^//^ not that I mind, at all.

I don't think I've talked about it yet, so let me just say that the JLPT N5 went fine! ^^ It was a lot easier than I imagined and I actually think I did pretty well. I just hope it was above the passing mark, failing now would really bring my mood down. However, I won't get the results until March so I have a lot of time to stress about that xD

Other than all this, I guess not much have been going on? Lots of osu and studying, and handing in a narrative for english that I really wish I could just take back and rip to pieces c:

I'll make sure to blog more often now that I have time! ^^ For now, have a lovely winter.

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Hello!

So to further describe my existance, I shall write what I assume will be an unnecessary profile.

So my name's Jennifer and I'm soon to be 18 and hella glad for that as well. I live in a village the size of your palm in the middle of nowhere and I take the bus to and from my school everyday for 20 minutes. I have decent grades, nothing to brag about except my average of 10 (full score) in English (lol my pride and glory) and I will try hard to raise them I promise. OTL I have a somewhat unhealthy love for languages as I tend to pick up a tad too many and at the moment I'm studying French, Japanese, Spanish, Finnish and English (while Swedish is my mothertongue). (English can't really count as studying though so scratch that.)

My ultimate life goal is to move to Japan and make a big enough success out of this waste of space of a life to actually get to stay there and if I'd get to choose, I'd never come back to Finland. I hate cold weather, I really dislike freezing but I do love wrapping myself up in warm clothing and blankets and sip on some hot chocolate while the chilly weather stays outside. I don't like sweating, but I like the summer. I don't really have any special feelings about autumn or spring.

I live with my mom and my brother and sister, both younger than me, and my dad lives a random life in Spain. (I don't really care to keep up, it's mostly gym business anyways.) He calls sometimes but I rarely see him and it's been that way for such a long time that it doesn't really affect me anymore.

I think I'm a person really easy to misinterpret, because it seems as if many people think I'm someone I'm not. I don't know why that is, but I guess I can be pretty foulmouthed sometimes. I really can't stand people who complain about the smallest of things and that pisses me off. Weak people also pisses me off, those who just looks as if they're begging to be beaten up. (Not that I'd hit anyone, I really wouldn't, but you know those people.) People who are full of themselves can also go die, especially if they're younger than me and act as if I couldn't just step on them like an ant. I guess I dislike lots of different types of people...

For things that I love, I can mention things like manga, fanfics (boy luv onley), kpop, jrock, visual kei, going to concerts, touching the artists inappropriately when I manage to reach them on stage, studying languages, reading about asian stuff, looking at Tokyo on Google Maps, research universities, look at apartments in Tokyo and calculate how much I would have to make to live there. Yes, I have a life like that. <3

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Hello ~ ^^

Today's been a really .. motivated day. I finally got into writing again (yay! ^^) and even posted that drabble-wannabe ^^;; (link here) Even though I'm not really happy about how it turned out, I'm still glad I got something done. I love the feeling of finishing things, I have a bad habit of never getting there.

Labels: my life

H-hello *shivers*

Labels: Japanese, my life

My aunt is coming over today and we will have a really cozy family day c: It's been a while (not counting xmas) so I'm really looking forward to it ^^

Labels: gamenerd, osu

I feel like I have a lot to say, but at the same time, I don't want to make this another monster update where I ramble about things that don't even make sense ^^ However this thing turns out, bear with it n_n


and it really got me thinking about where I've been going ^^; I haven't been studying as much as I would've liked to and that has made me even less motivated to pick up that book. "I don't have time" and all kinds of excuses. I will never ever respect a person who blames the fact that he/she hasn't done anything on "I didn't have time" because really, you do. No matter how much stuff you have going on that day, you can take an hour or even just half an hour in the evening to sit your ass down and study. That's called being lazy and not having the balls to admit it. But I kind of turned into that myself.

So I opened my books and I sat down, and I studied for probably 2 hours while my dear friend kept me company online c: I realized that it IS important to look back, because even now when it feels like I haven't progressed at all, when I look back at the time when I could barely conjugate verbs, I realize I have become better, at least a little bit. Every minute I study brings me forward, and it's like he said - A year from now I will wish that I had started today. 

So this somewhat opened my eyes for what I've been blind to and I concluded that I'm okay with my level. I'm not good, but that's okay. I haven't made any real effort to become good either, so why would I be? Studying 4 hours a week isn't gonna cut it, it helps, but it's not good enough. I know I have time. EVERYONE has time. Want to sleep 8 hours a night? Make that 7. Reading the newspaper for an hour every morning? Don't, you can do that later. Mindlessly reading blogs or being on facebook? Skip that for a day, study instead. I realized I have so much time that I think I don't, because I like to make excuses so that I don't have to feel bad for not being as good as I should be. From now on, I'll stop with that.

I don't know if you study Japanese. If you "say" you're studying Japanese. If you actually do. So I don't know if this will matter to you in the slightest. But this was really something important to me. I really really want to live in Japan when I grow up. I want to build a future there. It's not something I'm joking around about, it's not a dream that "might" come true for me. I'm serious. I've been spoiled enough living in Finland so thinking things will just work out for me is somewhat natural. But it won't. If I don't do anything about it, nothing will happen because nobody wants someone who blames everything on something or someone else. I read about tons and tons of people who say their dream is to live in Japan, to know japanese.
... Please don't insult my dream like that. I don't want to be put together in the same group as people who talk and talk and talk about how they're studying and how they will live there one day when in reality, they don't put in any effort at all. That makes everyone who's actually serious look bad.

I don't know why this thing suddenly came to life orz It wasn't supposed to end up like this, but I guess it's okay once in a while ^^ I haven't ranted in a while so just... live with it?

If you read through this whole monster, thank you? ^^;; And happy holidays for as long as they last!

Labels: Japanese

Merry christmas everyone!! ^^

This time a year is definitely my favorite (christmas time) simply because of the cozy feelings that are everywhere. I really love it c:

It's already been 2 days since christmas but I'll write this now when I have time c: I wanted to be with my family as much as possible and we just came home today!

This christmas has been amazing in so many ways! I finally, fiinally got the tablet I've been wanting forever, the Wacom Bamboo Connect ctl-470 which is super super amazing and it's helped me improve so much in os un////n I'm so happy I have it, I really really love it n_n best christmas gift ever!
Otherwise I pretty much got money and such c: My dad paid for my London trip with my school in April (?) next year so that's his gift and ofc some clothes ~ I also got a concert ticket and some cute stuff I chose myself when we went christmas shopping a few weeks ago :3

I wish I would've taken more pictures, but I didn't orz I don't have a single one from the actual christmas eve ><






Hello ~ ^^

Today is the very day when there's 3 days left til xmas and 3 months left til my 18th birthday! ^^

I wish I had something relevant to talk about, but I really don't. Exhaustion from, well, everything has seemed to have caught up with me (finally) and I've literally done nothing but sleep/rest for the whole day. I didn't get up enough to do anything productive until 19:30. ^^;; Well, it's the first day of the holidays so I can give myself this much, don't u think? ~

I did decide that it was a good idea to cut my fringe today and bring it back from its hopeless "3cm below my eyes" state c: Then I read my daily horoscope and it said "You might feel like changing your physical appearance today. Be aware that you may be just a little too easygoing right now" so I'm waiting for the universe to punish me ...

I was thinking about what kinds of pictures to post, but I really didn't come up with anything. Then I decided that if I have pretty nails like 3 times/year, I might as well showcase them off.

Labels: Japanese, kawaii, my life

Hello ~

There's only 5 days left until christmas and I couldn't be more excited! <3 I'm finally done with school for this year, a lovely 2 and a half week holiday waiting for me c: It's going to be so nice to just not have to do anything, no assignments, no deadlines. No nothing. ^^

While about 70% of the reason why I'm looking forward to xmas is because of ham, ham and more ham, I'm really looking forward to spending time with family c: I also managed to get myself a tablet for christmas, so I'm expecting a lot of osu ^//^ not that I mind, at all.

I don't think I've talked about it yet, so let me just say that the JLPT N5 went fine! ^^ It was a lot easier than I imagined and I actually think I did pretty well. I just hope it was above the passing mark, failing now would really bring my mood down. However, I won't get the results until March so I have a lot of time to stress about that xD

Other than all this, I guess not much have been going on? Lots of osu and studying, and handing in a narrative for english that I really wish I could just take back and rip to pieces c:

I'll make sure to blog more often now that I have time! ^^ For now, have a lovely winter.

Labels: my life