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8D Summertime! ~ ♥ ON Monday, May 21, 2012 AT 6:55 PM

Woot woot! Finally summer ~ ♥

Today was the first day that I actually tried to avoid the sun (weird, I know) and that means it's officially summer here in Finland! ^^ I don't know how many degrees, but enough to make me sweat and wish for some cold water, so it's good enough :)

A picture of me ^^

Another good news (for me, at least) is that I don't have to do my finnish thing! ♥ I happened to hear that it's the last lesson tomorrow, so if you're not there, what can she do? ~

Now, this do mean that I'm kind of letting my friend do this thing without me (although she has the other 3 members of our group) and she's hella pissed at me for this. She calls me selfish, and for some reason everybody's on her side >< , but really, that's unfair because it's my decision to make in the end and since they keep telling me to think about them as well, shouldn't they do the same?

I'm terrified every time I have to perform in Finnish, because I really can't speak the language, and now I have basically everyone against me because I'm not there to be my friend's moral support u_u"

So I'm kind of torn (even though I'm definitely staying home) and have bad conscience.

Other than that, I'm still in a very good mood today because for some reason, when people are down my mood always rises. xD Not because I like them being down (it's quite awkward for me actually bcuz I don't really know what to do to make them feel better when they don't want to talk to me or is glaring at me every chance they get) but I think it's because my brain thinks it gotta compensate for their lack of happiness by being overly joyed. 8D

That's some of me-knowledge for you. Now I'm going to stop this ridiculously long update and go watch some more of "Liar Game". I have a lot to tell you about it, but clearly that's going to have to wait until another time ;D See you ~~

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Hello!

So to further describe my existance, I shall write what I assume will be an unnecessary profile.

So my name's Jennifer and I'm soon to be 18 and hella glad for that as well. I live in a village the size of your palm in the middle of nowhere and I take the bus to and from my school everyday for 20 minutes. I have decent grades, nothing to brag about except my average of 10 (full score) in English (lol my pride and glory) and I will try hard to raise them I promise. OTL I have a somewhat unhealthy love for languages as I tend to pick up a tad too many and at the moment I'm studying French, Japanese, Spanish, Finnish and English (while Swedish is my mothertongue). (English can't really count as studying though so scratch that.)

My ultimate life goal is to move to Japan and make a big enough success out of this waste of space of a life to actually get to stay there and if I'd get to choose, I'd never come back to Finland. I hate cold weather, I really dislike freezing but I do love wrapping myself up in warm clothing and blankets and sip on some hot chocolate while the chilly weather stays outside. I don't like sweating, but I like the summer. I don't really have any special feelings about autumn or spring.

I live with my mom and my brother and sister, both younger than me, and my dad lives a random life in Spain. (I don't really care to keep up, it's mostly gym business anyways.) He calls sometimes but I rarely see him and it's been that way for such a long time that it doesn't really affect me anymore.

I think I'm a person really easy to misinterpret, because it seems as if many people think I'm someone I'm not. I don't know why that is, but I guess I can be pretty foulmouthed sometimes. I really can't stand people who complain about the smallest of things and that pisses me off. Weak people also pisses me off, those who just looks as if they're begging to be beaten up. (Not that I'd hit anyone, I really wouldn't, but you know those people.) People who are full of themselves can also go die, especially if they're younger than me and act as if I couldn't just step on them like an ant. I guess I dislike lots of different types of people...

For things that I love, I can mention things like manga, fanfics (boy luv onley), kpop, jrock, visual kei, going to concerts, touching the artists inappropriately when I manage to reach them on stage, studying languages, reading about asian stuff, looking at Tokyo on Google Maps, research universities, look at apartments in Tokyo and calculate how much I would have to make to live there. Yes, I have a life like that. <3

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